hiding emotions
I'm in emotional dilemma. I've been sooo confused since last night....
I'm torn between two projects. One will be done on-site (somewhere south of Luzon), the other one will be done in the office however the project costs way way higher. If I were to choose career wise, I'd choose the off-site project. But I prefer the on-site project for personal reason. Well don't ask what it is coz it's a looooong story!
Things are ok last thursday, but yesterday was different. I don't know which project will be given to me. Plus the fact that the supposedly team mate of mine for the on-site project is not going to join me anymore. She found a better job. Of course I felt bad. My mind is set already that she'll be joining my team. But what can I do? I do understand her. I know it's gonna be a big break in her career. I know she wants that job. I can't blame her. I'm not mad at her. Actually, I'm happy for her. But still, I can't help myself to be sad.
Staying in a power plant for 3 months without any friend is so lonely. How am I going to survive? Having team mates that I don't even know personally and unexperienced in the technology that we'll be using is a tough job! I've been thinking about that until now. I can't hide my emotions.
Today, I went out with my family. I tried my best to be as jolly as I used to be but I think i'm not quite successful! Malayo ang tingin, wala naman tinatanaw. Natutulala.
Now I'm beginning to accept the situation already...Que sera sera...What will be will be...I know this is a great challenge. And I know it won't be given to me by God if I won't be able to handle it. Anyway, I still don't know yet the management's decision on which project will I be assigned.
To you my friend, goodluck to your new job! =)
I'm torn between two projects. One will be done on-site (somewhere south of Luzon), the other one will be done in the office however the project costs way way higher. If I were to choose career wise, I'd choose the off-site project. But I prefer the on-site project for personal reason. Well don't ask what it is coz it's a looooong story!
Things are ok last thursday, but yesterday was different. I don't know which project will be given to me. Plus the fact that the supposedly team mate of mine for the on-site project is not going to join me anymore. She found a better job. Of course I felt bad. My mind is set already that she'll be joining my team. But what can I do? I do understand her. I know it's gonna be a big break in her career. I know she wants that job. I can't blame her. I'm not mad at her. Actually, I'm happy for her. But still, I can't help myself to be sad.
Staying in a power plant for 3 months without any friend is so lonely. How am I going to survive? Having team mates that I don't even know personally and unexperienced in the technology that we'll be using is a tough job! I've been thinking about that until now. I can't hide my emotions.
Today, I went out with my family. I tried my best to be as jolly as I used to be but I think i'm not quite successful! Malayo ang tingin, wala naman tinatanaw. Natutulala.
Now I'm beginning to accept the situation already...Que sera sera...What will be will be...I know this is a great challenge. And I know it won't be given to me by God if I won't be able to handle it. Anyway, I still don't know yet the management's decision on which project will I be assigned.
To you my friend, goodluck to your new job! =)
posted by pooh bear @ 9:20 PM
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